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When we understand that man is the only animal who must create meaning, who must open a wedge into neutral nature, we already understand the essence of love. Love is the problem an animal who must find life, creat a dialogue with nature in order to experience his own being.




Ernest Becker

Waiting for Love

Love is something that comes to us all at different stages of our lives. Be patient because the person for you is there, but he or she is waiting for the right time to make their entrance into your life. Sometimes when things seem bad it's really not bad because just think someone else always has it a little worse. Friend's come and go, but always try to be a great friend to those you consider friends and don't pretend to be there friend. Treat them the way you want to be treated even if they don't treat you right because in the end they will see who they should have turned to

Can love be explained?

"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesnt diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives."

I love me and you?

“You must love yourself before you love another. By accepting yourself and fully being what you are, your simple presence can make others happy.”


I came across this quote.. and I thought I share it with all of you, because at the end of the day it is true, this is what I life by. you gotta love yourself and make yourself happy.. because no one else can do it for you, the only person that can love you the way you deserve is yourself.
Later on the track you find people you will adapt and be able to compromise with to share special moments with.. and love.. we shouldnt go out looking for someone to appreciate us for who we are because the only person that would be able to truelly see you for who you are is the person staring back at you in the mirror.
for my message for today is simple.. love yourself.. take a chance and try it.. Ive done it and I love myself and my life

Better Person

see I was looking at someones profile and they had a very interesting question!


How do I make myself a better person!?

I like that question so reminise about it and this is what I came up with I hope you all can find some help from it.



be the best that you could possibly be in everything you do, when something wrong happens, thank life that it happen, because of at the end you be a better person no matter how much hurt it may bring. bless those that do wrong to you because it is only through those people that we learn what not to do. Respect yourself, enjoy today as if it was your last day because it may as well be. but most of all love yourself because no matter what happens that is all we got ourselves. Live and let other people live. If there is a bump on the road before jumping ahead think why is it there, learn from it and move on. reflect constanly on your life and the things you have done and from those, make it better next time around.

Simple??

No matter how simple we are or how simple we would like life to be, there is times where life just gets a little complicated, and it is besides our control.
I found myself in a complicated situation, a situation that I knew sooner or later would find me. The funny thing is, I wanted the simple part of the situation, I just didnt want the complicated part and obviously, I didnt think it was going to happen right at this moment, because at this moment it where the obvious complication finds me. No matter how logical we may be, there is something that we cannot fight and that is emotions. emotions just like faith is something that goes past logic. Ones you have feelings for a person.. logic seems insane.
There may be 100 people in this world that a person may like but it does go down to one or may be two people that you like, that have the power to stimulate you mentally, psychologically, emotionally and as a matter of fact logically.. without there being room for logic. It creates a complete and extraordinary chemical reaction. There is variables that alternate this reaction.. to which makes it "complicated" but what happens when this two chemicals are bound to mix, they keep finding there way into a formula, no matter how complicated it may be.
In other words.. like every ones says sometimes is worth fighting for what you really want, even if it doesnt work, at least you know you tried and gave it your best. I believe if you try hard enough the other person will be able to see that you are been genuien that you mean what you say.. and besides.. how can two people avoid a chemical reaction?

Child of God.

I am so grateful to be alive, right at this very moment. With my English limitations but my creativity as vivid as ever, I am here. In this very moment and this very second as I type this words and as you read them I am here. Fully present in body, mind and soul. So who am I? a child of God. My path with God has never being easy, I have stray, I have sin not only against other people or God  but most of all I have sin against the greatest gift of all MYSELF. I do not admit my sins with pride but with humble humility because I am able to see my sins. I am a child of God, his love lives in me and I in his love. He forgives me before I sin, even before I was born his love for me is so immense that I was forgiven for sins I had not yet done.

I am amazing because I am God's child. I am not perfect but it is in my imperfection that the mercy of God dwells. It is because of my weaknesses that God is active in my life. It is because I fall that he seeks me every day. He has given me so much; a life for me to choose what to do with it, without judgement or restrictions. He has given me the path for ME to make the choice. He has given me an amazing father of whom I learnt to love myself, a father that through my imperfections loves me just as much. A mother who carried me for 9 months and still in her heart and souls holds me dear, A woman who is the best example of a mother. A sister who showered me with the most astonishing love, a brother in law whose humble heart embraces me as his only sister. 2 girlfriends who have seen me laugh, cry, fall and get up every time. A friend who is almost like a brother and who never fails to remind me of what an amazing and powerful woman I am and finally a man who has cried with me and laugh with me. Every time I fell his hand was waiting there, to help me up, A man who till today sees not the worse but the best in me and at my worse it is when his love is at it's best because he shakes me to my deepest cores, breaks the walls I've build and finally allows light in to my heart. That man is my best friend and the man that I love and he is too my gift from God.

So yes, I am a God fearing woman, yes I am beautiful, yes I am amazing, yes I am a powerful and strong woman, I have awsome qualities that shine as bright as gold but most important YES I AM A CHILD OF GOD!

The Journey

There is so much I would like to write about, I have millions of ideas in my mind but none of them seem to solidify right now. I think is because I'm trying to write for an audience and not for me may be that is a start. I just want to share so much that I have found out in the last few days that it is chocking my inspiration, words just don't seem to add together right now.

I've embark a journey of healing and self discovery and it takes so much courage to be able to search deep inside. We let our fears build a movie of things and obstacles that may not even be there. We allow ourselves to build fictional screen about our lives and the people around us. Unconsciously we act in a way that might lead us to hurting the people closest to us the people we love. You gotta be happy with life, with who you are. Happiness is the journey we ultimately take.

I believe that as we embark this journey of struggle, fill with courage and much happiness achieved we are bound to find love, and that Love's purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, the most beautiful thing about this love it's that it's real, it shakes you to your deepest cores. It makes you see your deepest fear with unconditional support. The most beautiful thing about this part of the journey is that it happens without us even knowing. It is not a conscious course of action but a mere flow of the heart, of the spirit, of God's immensity, connecting people together.

It is said that we have to love ourselves before we love someone else, I ought to deffer. I'd like to propose that it is the love that another person awakens in us that allows us to be able to awaken that self love. I believe that it is through sharing an emotional  and profound bond with the other person that unlocks and grants us the potential to love the other unconditionally but also ourselves.  God created man and woman, we are a key and a lock to unravel our extensive potential, it was Jesus love for his church that unlocked the forgiveness of sins. This bond is a gift from God, a blessing, a true treasure and the best tool for us in this journey called life.

Dreams

It is a new year and we all slowly getting ourselves back into the mode of work, school, children, classes whatever it might be. Most of our resolutions are still fresh in our minds and we are still very discipline. It happens every year, and soon enough most of us would have let go of those resolutions by mid year and guess what?? that is okay... but what happens to our dreams? to our ambitions?

I will tell you this year can pass you by and you can even forget about your dreams but one day soon enough they will catch up to you. life on it's own rightful time will show you, will guide you towards those dreams, those ambitions that have slowly shaped who you are. Our past shape us in one form or another but there is a certainty that it was our dreams that allowed us to make those choices, either out of fear or rebellion but we did made the choices and they got us here where we ar today.
It is impossible to blame someone else for where you are today, you made the choice to be where you are! how?. by not doing anything, by not loving yourself enough, by doing to much, by holding back, by not trusting in life, not having faith, not opening up.. but you took the choice to do what was right for you at the time. However it is not about being a victim, it's about allowing ourselves the knowledge, that we do the best that we can. It is to empower us as dreamers and believer of who we are and what we can achieve.

Dreams and ambitions are real, it is only fear of failing, of not being enough that allow us to be stuck where we are, so you can make a choice, you can take the led and let go of the fear.. and you can embrace your dream, you can push your limits and go beyond the horizon and reach to the door of the universe.

Fears and Insecurities

How much do we allow our fears to play with our mind? how much do we then allow our mind to tame our feelings and finally diminish our fire. I am a very passionate woman, I believe to have a flame in my heart and I have never being able to subside it. I finally realize that I don't want to, why would I want to kill the passion that drives me to be me.


I do get afraid and I can be fragile and there are days where I really don't know what to do with myself because I do have insecurities to deal with. The more I see them and the more I am actively discovering me as a person as a woman that feels with a tremendous passion, I come to the realization that I'm not alone. Yes we all carry insecurities and fear around us all day, there is no reason why deny it. Why have we allowed society and our way of life to robe us from the truth? YES WE ARE ALL AFRAID. we fear different thing but we are all afraid of something and that fear drive us to feel insecure and I have discover that it's okay. Yes.. it's okay to be afraid, it's okay to feel that your heart hurts and that it's burden. It is just a matter of how much you allow your fear to take over you and gain the understanding that it will soon pass whatever it is.

I have allow my fears to drive me to the most darkest places in my mind and heart, I have suffered not because of my past or what other people have done to me but because I allowed my fears to do so. So I won't tell you that I no longer fear and I wont say that I don't have insecurities but I'm learning to deal with them. I'm finding ways and things that help me realize how much power I have over them. How my fire doesn't need to me tame but needs to be allow to breath and flourish. It is in this fire that I defeat my fear, I wont lie I still get afraid and I still have many insecurities but I don't allow them to paralyse me any more. I don't give them the chance to break me down to tears. I have learnt that I can use that fear to produce courage. To be able to achieve things I might never thought possible. at the end of the day what is the worse thing that can happen!? and if it does.. doesn't life go on?

So I don't hide my fear because I let my passion, my fire deal with them.

Motherhood

1stly I would like to clarify that no, I am not pregnant, now that it's all clear I can begin.

Everywhere in every day life women talk about a biological clock, there is theories and all sorts of arguments about it but what is a biological clock?
It has come to my own attention that the term "biological clock" for women is nothing more than the desire to have children. When the party life and unstable ways of youth seems to be less noisy than the desire to nest our own child.

It seems that after all, I do have a maternal side and despite the hectic and destructive life I led, it has finally flourish. I am amazed at how much a mother loves her child even before he/she is born, I am amazed to see how holding a baby in my arms can bring a joy and peace I never knew I could reach. To know that one day my womb will carry my own blood and bone, that I will be able to give life to another human being and that out of love a baby will grow inside of me.

There is a phenomena that takes place in a young woman like myself when the desire of having children seems to over take her. I've gain a strength and will power that drives me to do things I never thought I could or would do in the past. It has given me a desire to push my limits, to heal my past and to deal with my unresolved issues all due to a longing to provide a better life for that child.

I am convince that child and mother share a bond that goes beyond conception, a bond that starts when a woman's predilection of bearing children takes over her.. at that point a baby has appointed her as a mother. That woman has been chosen, her feelings, her thoughts and her emotions are no longer only hers they are shared with a being, that only lurks in the spiritual realm but that it's deepest desires are the moment of conception.

And finally in my opinion I think is futile to say that a mother doesn't know when she has been chosen.

when two people fall in love is funny.. no one elses sees it. except them.. after they are in love, they can get through anything together.